ECSTATIC

THIS IS SO OVERRATED.

grr.

BITCH BITCH BITCH! Go away. Go back to JB, NEVER come back. Its not MY fucking fault I''m not happy okay. YES i KNOW that there wouldn't be a "perfect" school. But its hard to concentrate on one thing when something else is bugging me. You should REALIZE that I've TRIED. I'm still TRYING. 

STOP SCREAMING AT ME WHEN WE CAN FUCKING TALK LIKE FUCKING ADULTS MOTHERFUCKINGBITCHKANINA

=.= urghhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Go away, Mother. I fucking HATE you. G A H.

Whatever, ultimate bitch off my mind now :)

Homygodsingaporeclasstripisinlike13dayshomygod!

I am THIS excited. :D But I'm also THIS sad that that might be the last time I'm back in JB/Singapore for a very very long time. mehh. 

Played Captain's Ball , everything from my shirt to my legs to my hands got covered in mud mud mud mud dirrrty mud! Ho' wells :D It was reaaally! fun :) Helped the little primary kids with their dance along with BazelNut™ (heeeheeee!) Enjoyed today :) Even Vivaldi was better than usual. Yay me/him :D

Traaaaalalalalala~ Its fate okay Alicia, accept that. F A T E. Nyaha. 

Okay, about the traffic light party! I don't know if I should go, or not. Saturday evening, then Sunday morning I is competing. Hmm, if I ride from like 8am till like 5pm then party from 7 till 12, sleep from 1 till 7 and ride from 8 till 12. HOLY SHIT I WILL DIE ON MONDAY. HA HA HA :D

NEXT! What should I wear? I is a yellooooowww! Yet, I am still counted as GREEN. Should I go in green and use that killer Miss Sixty top? Nyeh.

Oh whatever.

Will figure my life out tomorrow,

xx

ECSTATIC!

Its been too long and I'm lost without you.

I MET SEXY. ho'yeah :D

this sexy is as in Jacob Black with short hair sexy okay.

SERIOUSLY.

Been skipping school!

My weekends were very interesting :) Especially SUNDAY. Well, Saturday was the reason SUNDAY was like THE sunday of my life. THE best day okay. THE. T H E. HAHAHAHA =.= Gosh.

Okay, spent my weekends with cousins. And yes, unfortunately one of them is DAMN DAMN hot. SAD. We're related. Genetically, we'd have ugly kids if anything happened. Not that I was thinking about anything. HAHA. SPM is around the corner for him, and I'm like disturbing him. Gee,

ITS OKAY! Cousin has hot guy friends. Though I swore to be a nun, whatever. Nuns look, they just say they don't. I think? 

 

My nails are still the awesome black base and blue tip french manicured, and I have school tomorrow. I need the pictures for Wilayah too. Damn it. I wish; school was over. And I wish, I had trained for BK show this weekend. GAH.

so little time, so many things i could do.

xx

I'M FREAKING IN LOVE AGAIN.

Life is short, live it to the fullest - according to everyone.

I think we live for tomorrow, today :)

Pictures pictures at BK. It was very entertaining. Spent lunch/brunch with Lyss and people at the Curve. Lyss was nice enough to drag me thereee. Later on in the afternoon I went looking for my cat (wink wink Arif) with Lyss and neighbours. HA HA HA. I'm sure we had fun eh? When lyss went back I continued looking with neighbours. :D good fun good fun. Adam and I had the most amazing talk about everything/anything while the rain was pouring. Yes, he is very good looking. LOL I wonder who felt so lonelyyy! Not likely he would be reading my blog. STILL :O

Parents home-ed and they came over. Brothers were entertained by the presence of not one, but TWO guys in the house. HAHAHA. Mom was babbling about keeping my room door closed. =.= HELLO I WONT DO ANYTHING LAH AIYOOOO =.= As good looking/nice/sweet/hilarious he may be. I WILL CONTROL MYSELF. Limit limit limit must i have a limit :(    Gah! Oh well, I've more things to worry about!

Cempaka's got talent is one. What freaking instrument do I play!! I don't even have a piano at home, how how how how do i practice Alicia Key's - If I ain't got you? okay, am I even IN it? hmm!

BKECR show on the 14,15. It totally clashes with the traffic light party. And if I'm going I need to look for a YELLOW dress. Well of course I could see how much magic would be made till Saturday night. Then again, I'm still thinking about going GREEN for good lah. Its so annoying. =.=

REAL ISSUE: TP on 14th night. If I'm like competing next morning, i so should not party. Holy mommah!

16 days. Can't wait.

iwishicouldtellyounowandmakeeverythingeasierbutican't.

motherf.

itsthechase.Idonotwantaboyfieee

xx

STUPID CBL RUINING MY CHANCES OF SURRRVIVAL.

I FREAKING MISS EVERYONE LAH PLEASE.

19 days. motherf.

Class outing is like so far awayyyy!

That means me going back to JB is also so far awayyyy!

Geez, even Hanna is so near yet so far awayyyy!

Just down the road. Divided by a road, and lazyness to walk.

geeesh.

Having CBL now. Which is practically this huge-ass research paper. Gah. Am stuck with the VIDEO portion. Where is Maepea my video buddy when i need her?!?! Nyaaah! Even like, Vince says my story line is hard. Gee, I miss the BRCC & SYF teams. Holy mommah!

I really am looking forward to like going back to JB and Singapore. I have been separated from sanity for soo effing long. I am losing my mind/confidence/self-esteem/life/blood/tears/sweat/mind (didn't i just say this?)/friends. Haih life's like this, no?

Video buddy/superpea. 

I miss b-b-b-boyfriend tooo! Gawd, SYF.

GAH.. Everyone is all over the place now.

Imagine that.

ho'mygodihaven'tfiguredoutifistillwannatalktoyouornot.

jeesh!

xx

You know that thing you do when you're damn sad and depressed and feel like everything is a fuck? Where's my Ralfie?

[11/2/09 6:26:55 PM] Aly ;D: i'm not okay with this whole moving to a new place thingy

[11/2/09 6:27:03 PM] Aly ;D: i wanna go back to JB where my friends are

[11/2/09 6:27:06 PM] Aly ;D: and school in SG

[11/2/09 6:27:11 PM] Aly ;D: and graduate at 16

[11/2/09 6:27:14 PM] Aly ;D: and wake up at 4am

[11/2/09 6:27:19 PM] Aly ;D: and fool around in customs

[11/2/09 6:27:30 PM] Aly ;D: and piss off the security guards

[11/2/09 6:27:38 PM] Aly ;D: and run around CWP after school

[11/2/09 6:27:43 PM] Aly ;D: playing hide and seek,

[11/2/09 6:27:50 PM] Aly ;D: which we usually only for likw 3 mins

[11/2/09 6:27:55 PM] Aly ;D: then give up cuz we're tired

[11/2/09 6:28:06 PM] Aly ;D: and do homework at the quadrangle

[11/2/09 6:28:14 PM] Aly ;D: i wanna talk to MGY,

[11/2/09 6:28:26 PM] Aly ;D: and complain about everyone, everything and feel so much better after

[11/2/09 6:28:37 PM] Aly ;D: i wanna be a part of 2A again

[11/2/09 6:29:48 PM] Aly ;D: i wanna go nuts during english lesson with my group and hear Dominic talk about dumping being thrown everywhere, and killing syafiq in the process

[11/2/09 6:30:08 PM] Aly ;D: forcing bal to take pictures with me, hanging out with nat after school

[11/2/09 6:30:14 PM] Aly ;D: there is sooo much to miss :(

[11/2/09 6:30:30 PM] Aly ;D: and th only thing in KL that makes me happy is vivaldi and riding

[11/2/09 6:30:43 PM] Aly ;D: but how can that last ??

[11/2/09 6:30:56 PM] Aly ;D: I've lost so much self esteem and self confidence

[11/2/09 6:31:00 PM] Aly ;D: i lost my charm and everything

[11/2/09 6:31:02 PM] Aly ;D: urgh :(

[11/2/09 6:31:10 PM] Aly ;D: this. fucking. sucks.

Do you know what it feels like to miss these little things?

I miss everyone, everything about schooling in Singapore.

I miss my FRIENDS.

hey cempakans, learn the word.

No, I'm not coping well.

Yes,  I feel like dying.

Yes, that motherfuckingstupidbloodydamnassbitch is getting to me.

and so is everything else.

I can't wait to go back to JB. I wanna see mae, and crycrycry.

I can't wait for class outing in Singapore.

Am going literally crazy.

Shit, i want my life back.

xx

Bitches in the hallwayyy!!!

I just watched Jennifers Body with Bazel, Adilah, Jasmine and DON :P

IT.IS.THE.SHIT.

Was faffing around 1Utama since 11, blah, i feel like a minah. HA HA HA. No I don't, I don't know why i should even feel like one at all. Ate New York New York's breakfast. 

Come on, one pathetic T-Bacon?!?! You can't be friggin serious!! Oh well, life's like that. G A H.

After the movie we went to get some neoprints done, then Bazel and I went off to shop shop shop! Fell in love with a dress from Guess && a few from Zara. I still need to look for a leather jacket. meh, need to go around BV2. They usually have stuff that can fit me there. 

As much as people say I shouldn't complain, I will. I hate being so disproportionate, as skinny as people think i am. Long legs, fat-ass, teeny waist (no I'm not proud of it) zilch, for boobs. Like =.=! Come on, 27-24-34 IS NOT nice. GAH :'( I can't starve myself, because there is nothing to starve off, and I can't fattyfy myself either, cuz then I'll have fatter legs and bum :(

GAH, whatever whatever. I do not care about my freaking body.

No I don't :)

No one is online. :( Life is boring. Thank god I rode this morning. Vivaldi and I are getting back on track! Az, better watch out, B I Y A T C H. Then again, I'm so much better than you anyways, because I wonder who's winning the level your getting 42% for. Loser. Urgh.

some people piss.me.off.

as much as I'd like not to care, I have to be a bitch once in a while.

I need to feed my insecurities. ho' well :)

I saw Lyss at 1Utama :D heh, surprise, surprise. Didn't get to ask her about Aussie though. Oh well, will have a chat in school eh? *wiggles eyebrows*

Ozzie Mozzie was supposed to call me since God Knows When.

HAHAHA. I just realizeddd!!!

Oh my god, I can't find my dress in the Zara catalouge!! :O

suckerish. mothaf lah.

rawr.

imissyouactuallyquiteterriblythoughiknowitsweirdandeverything. HAHA

xx