I've been sunburnt. Great.

xx

I miss you!

Hello, I miss you. I know we were never that close compared to everyone else, but I miss you. I miss having a big sister, like seriously. People used to say we were sisters, people used to say I look like you. Tall, and similar features; I really felt like your sister. We talk alot, though only when you're not distracted by everyone else. I understand you have a much more fascinating life than me, oh well, I miss you :)

Hello, I miss you. I miss going riding with you. I miss telling you everything about my wonkey unfortunately hilarious life. I miss eating choki-choki with you in your room and terrorising your doof bag. I miss watching entertaining movies with you and anticipating every typical cheesy hollywood line. I miss following you everywhere because I was left all alone. I miss riding with you, I miss talking to you. I miss cheering you up all the time and entertaining you by being myself. You're distant now, what happened? Detachment is pretty weird, you somehow made me feel loved. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss your reaaallly irritating personality that is SO damn bi-polar and everyone has to listen to YOU all the time. Freaking gila. But I miss it! I miss you, walking to your house from school and your mom being so nice to me and the time I followed you to NTUC to get your groceries. I miss you talking about N and every other guy you fell madly in like with. I miss talking to you bout rubbish and being your "boyfriend" Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss you're no emotion-ness. I miss your ability to laugh at my tripping over an OBVIOUS metal bar. I miss your support for gay people. You're so hard to please, yet I manage to make your smile all the time at my very lame and failed jokes. I miss telling you about my life and not agreeing with your advice. I miss going crazy while you think i'm an utter moron. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss hanging out after school with you. I was happy there, unlike now, I guess because of you. I felt like someone needed me, and I needed them. I miss having you around to talk about life and friendship and about our cruise. I miss having my support and giving you yours. I miss bumping into random people when we're out. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss all these people above, and more.

My head is spinning, I need to eat, yet I feel fat!

Christmas party was FUN. 

Liyana and gang have gone up to Genting,

WITHOUT ME. grr.

Bracers off tomorrow morning. YAY!

I'll be in Johor soon loves,

xx

Edit./

Imissyou! The guy I thought you were. Its very disappointing. I may not have thought romantically of you, but hell, you were like my best friend. You were there when I needed you most and I thank you for that. But the worst part of it all is that when I was happy, you didn't let me share it with you. I miss talking to you on the phone about your life and my life, and you being high, and hanging out, and everything. You were SUPER FUN to be with, and its really sad that you just cut off contact with me. The fact that you had feelings for me didn't change the fact that I liked you as a friend, but obviously you wanted more right? Why couldn't we just be friends, thats all I wanted to be. Hell, I'm not even sure about where I am now. Sorry dude, but whatever. Oh well, I just freaking miss you.

Cover Ideas :)

Hello nonexistant readers! :D

Today is the day before I go to JB, hence I want to figure out what song to cover with MAEthePEA :D SOoOoOOOooOoOOOooO (that was soo cool!) these are the song choices :D

3 cheers for 5 years :) - Mayday Parade

Saltwater room :) - Owl City

Broken Strings - James Morrison feat. Nelly Furtado

OR

Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester.

Help help :D

I bet Mae is gonna be like " I THOUGHT WE DOING 3 CHEERS FOR 5 YEARS!" :O HAHA I AM DEAD.

Oh, spammer, I want you're opinion this time too okay :D Love you,

xx

:D

Christmas is here, Christmas is here.

But I didn't eat turkey, no eggnog, NOTHING. :(

Opened all my presents, shoes galore. ;D

yay,

xx

I LOVE YOU MAE.

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:19 PM)

peter pan is reall!!!

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:21 PM)

HAHAHHA

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:29 PM)

HAhSHHAHHA HOW YOU KNOW?!

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:35 PM)

he visited you in the toilet?

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:39 PM)

*wiggles eyebrows*

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:41 PM)

HAHAHAHA

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:42 PM)

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHHA

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:48 PM)

NO NO NO

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:51 PM)

IT WAS LAST NIGHT

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:55 PM)

.^^

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:59 PM)

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Think dirty, and you'll get the joke :D. Ilovethisgirl!

xx

Rock that body, come on come on.

Hello my blog readers! :D

Today is the PMR results thingy. Oh joy :) I hope all my 23093485708194 friends did well :D haaahaaa =.= I prayed (lie) that you guys are happy with your results. Seriously, if you didn't do as well as you wanted, but gave it your all, don't despair. Think of it as karma, and go do something nice to pick the mood up. Who knows, PMR isn't the end of the world!

I have homework to do! OH POO. :( I had like 2 weeks to finish it, and now I only have 3 hours. How sad, how depressive. Oh well, chop chop.

As Bal said, I can not stay still; henceforth the tiny depression period of 2 days. BAHA. Life's to short to be sulking over other people's problems, even if they are close to you. So I shall say, SMILEEEE, go do something stupid and wild and never regret it. Live fast, die hard.

Brain Pain, I need my subwoofers and speakers. NOW NOW NOW NOW :( Its not nice to listen to dance music on my Mac. URGH. Someone, anyone, get me a christmas pressie! I wanna open it at midnight. :D Oh, another issue, should I ride tomorrow?

The other day, Talya and I were talking about going on a road trip/backpacking around Europe. :D I'm still excited about it, though the possibility of that happening is like 0. HAHA. But who knows, open up my mind bayybeh. I wanna learn languages :D Spanish, French, maybe even Italian! Oh, and improving my German is a must. I want 4 seasons. I wanna live somewhere interesting. But doesn't everyone?

Am still pretty GAGA over the Aldo dude, woooh. Hotness. But lord knows, I think dating someone who's more than 4 years when your below 18 is a little bit too risky. I think the gang knows that I'm very sure of what "legal" boys are capable of. :( Oh wellies, I miss my bestfriend, I need to bitch. Haih, life is so uneventful;

My Christmas is boring. And very dull. Haih, I need some snow. Does anyone have a snow machine? My Christmas tree is overdecorated, yet dull. The presents are overflowing, yet I feel no meaning to this. I don't CELEBRATE celebrate it, but Oma's been encouraging us to do it every year. What's happening? :( 

I have tuition in 2 hours. I need to finish my homework. HAIH. Depressive. Its Christmas eve, where is the spirit of it? Bottom line, I don't wanna have tuition. Anyone have Mr Sanchu's number?

Photoshoot with Liyana the other day. And I'll have to do with Zuzu too =.= Anymore portfolio updates and I will shoot them. Maybe I should get paid to pose. HAAHAA! omg, perfect job :D Lets go model, shall we?

xx

I just want to die.

depression |diˈpre sh ən|

noun

1 severe despondency and dejection, typically felt over a period of timeand accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy.
Lord, save me.
My eyes hurt, my head is spinning. But I got 10 hours of sleep. What more should I do?
xx

Forget me, please.

Touchwood* everyfuckingthing is gonna be alright.

Hey, you, are you happy now since I am depressed and full of hatred?

Hey, you, are you pleased to see how screwed up I'm turning out to be?

Hey, you, happy to see that what you said about my parents is coming true?

Hey, you, are you filled with joy to see my riding, no my LIFE go down the drain?

Hey, you, I bet you're smug that you're some lucky kid who gets whatever, right?

Hey, fuck you, fuck you very very much.

Annoying past coming back to haunt me, words that have been said, starting to hit me, hard. Haih, don't you ever wish you could just shut it all out? please,

I  played paintball today with my riding friends. Moe was Moe-bo, instead of Rambo. ha ha, I wish I could laugh like I did this morning. Got bruised, but had fun.

IZRY, I'll miss you lots. Who am I gonna gossip with? :(

Everyone is leaving me, as I have left my friends in JB. Is it karma? Because I really would and still want to avoid it if I could. Oh lord,

Things are slowly falling apart. I can feel it, slowly crumbling beneath me. I don't wanna see what I'll fall into, because I like where I was standing few months ago, which was here.

Right here, nowhere else. haih,

xx

Biceps baybehhh!

Went rock climbing yesterday. How exciting :) The last time I climbed was in New Zeland. :') I miss that place. I swear, i could and still can feel my biceps and leg muscles throbbing, wooh. I'm gonna be fit and skinny. =.= ell oh ell okay. 

I want to model in New York. Random much. Screw hollywood, NY is the city culture I need man. Bahaha, or maybe I'm just jealous of Miss Hanna Sophia who is there like RIGHT NOW. And will be there through Christmas. Grr Rawr Woof. :(

Riding today was TERRIBLE. I need money. Now now now now now! :( Lessons for jumping and Dressage are critically needed. I is going down ze drain. OH LORD SAVE ME NOW. :( Bad habits are being picked up, and I don't know how to advance higher because idk the movement aids. Oh wellies, lets hope pure skill, natural talent and hard core self practice will get a gold for Wilayah in SUKMA. pray pray.

Once again, I need to party. Life is absolutely dull and I wish to be nonchalant about it, but no. I am very very bothered by my 0 happening life. haih, lets go back to JB, party, go out, create havoc, and screw up. PMR is next year and I wanna party my ass off right now. I'm looking forward to 1st of January. For some weird reason :)

xx

Ficken Sie die Welt :)

I'm somehow touched by this song; I feel like its my impact on a few people

*OMFG TAK TAHU MALU SIAAA =.= *

I couldn't sleep last night

I walked alone 

On the beach 

Where we always used to go 

When we couldn't hook up at home

I thought of you 

And the time we jumped the fence

Both sides ripped down 

We dove right in

And the cops chased us again

When you were mine

You know

We had it all in front of us

You were the one

I was in love

But you always hurt 

the one you lost

I couldn't get enough

You were everything

That's bad for me

Make no apologies

I'm crushed...

Black and blue

But you know 

I'd do it all again for you

Today, dressed up 

In designer drugs

Dedicated to the one 

I'll always love

The one who really messed me up

I let you take the wheel

And the driver's seat

Strapped in 

So you get the best of me

Now what's left are the memories

When you were mine

You know

We had it all in front of us

You were the one

I was in love

But you always hurt 

The one you lost

I couldn't get enough

You were everything

That's bad for me

Make no apologies

I'm crushed...

Black and blue

But you know 

I'd do it all again for you

I am standing in the ocean rain

Rough and ready

For your deadly game

I've got nowhere else to go

We had it all in front of us

You were the one

I was in love

But you always hurt 

The one you lost

I couldn't get enough

You were everything

That's bad for me

Make no apologies

I'm crushed...

Black and blue

But you know 

I'd do it all again for you

(You know I'd do it all again for you) 

(I swear I'd do it all again for you)

You like? :D 

All again for you - We the kings.

back to the normal, Mae, Roa, Adam and I had the most interesting conversation of my life. HAHA Quote of the day;

"what do you do when you're bestfriend's boyfriend thinks your boyfriend is hot?" - M.U.T.C.Y

And Alicia's response is :

"BAHAHAHAHAhAhAHAHAHAHHHAHAHHHHAHHAAAAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA OMFG WTF ADAM YOU'RE SO GAY. BAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA"

And Adams response is :

"I'd like to get Aaron under a mistletoe with me *wiggles eyebrows*"

And Aarons response is :

"Hooo' Yeah,"

Girlfriends, keep your boyfriends away from mine. I will not be responsible for stolen boys. BAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Really, I love these people :D Maybe not Adam, bt Roa and Mae are amazing. Heart heart.

Haih! Survived tuition just now. I wanna I wanna sleep now! But can't, but actually I can, I think? =.= I hate how I have the 'ultimate heartbreak' playlist among the gang. Like, last night, Roa and Mae's iTunes played love songs all night, and mine was all about heartbreak and "looking for love" kinda crap. Yes, it is very worrying I don't have music to express my L-L-L-L-L-L-L-L-L-L-LIKE for my BOYFRIEND :D whoo~ Well, not really.

I'm contemplating going to SPADE. You know that cheezy party in Shah Alam, I have a feeling everyone got like invites but oh well, Nik is going so idk if i wanna ikut! I want to drag BazelNut, but I also wanna drag a huge-ass group of people with me. How sad, I can't book flights for my JB lovelies :( Blehhhh. See how, see how. I is SINFUL (inside joke :D)

I just realized that I haven't taken my books out from my locker. :O Oh deary meee! :(

fuck you, fuck you very very much!

:D I miss the spammers! Being just loved isn't enough.

I need more hate in my life. BAHAHAHA =.=

okay Alicia, be careful; what you wish might come true :O

xx

Giant & Esthers!

This is the kinda havoc we created in Esthers room. Bahaha!

Clearly, I had alot of fun, and blogging about it would kinda be an understatement, btu never the less I shall!

So, On Tuesday Jasmine invited a few of us for lunch, we went to the Highway Sedap Corner, and it was utterly terrible. I'm joking! I loved it :) I took soo many pictures, it was not funny. Mindy had to meals and Kangkung =.= And the bill was like RM100. It was RM9 worth of tax okay! Jeesh. But besides that, Jasmine pissed off the waiter, bahahaha! And it took us like 20 mins to figure out the bill. Ohhh gosh, I love those people.

Esther, Vithya, Pea and I decided to drop by Convent. I swear it is TERRIBLE now. WHY THE BOG IS IT FREAKING PINK?! :( Our cemented dirty floors are gone, its tiled, and PINK. PINK FOR GODS SAKE :O We came a little bit too late, bonda and all the HEM's had left oh well :( OH OH OH OH! The writings on the walls were still there. How, refreshing ;D

Anyways, the next day Pea and I decided to go back to try and meet bonda, and as ususal, the office lady told me off for wearing shorts. I was like err, okay? Hehehe! I bet they were heartbroken that their attempts at forcing the tudung on me just made me worse. ell oh ell :D

Went bowling with the rest of the gang, this day consisting with mostly guys. Mae, Esther, Jiew Ann and I were the only girls! Mae's dad turned up and told her to behave herself. Sorry pea, but that made me wanna laugh! Roa was like the ULTIMATE. The number of strikes he got, we must have been the noisiest lanes. Teehee, I have never been happier!

We decided to try out some of the "333 ways to get kicked out of Walmart" in Giant. HAHA, I managed to follow a lady till she checked out. It was so funny. I bet she knew, but Mae and Roa were following me, and it was utterly HILARIOUS.

"Eh where's the Thousand Island sauce?! How to do barbeque like this?" - Mae

=.= I think the lady was annoyed. OH WELL. The security was already sending Giant staff to make sure we don't cause trouble. But Terence was catwalking down the Isles, and we made a train and cha-cha-ed all over Giant. Best. Day. EVER. I feel like an MLIA.

We went to Esthers house, and even more havoc was created. Now, Esther has a daughter named Natalie and her dad is Tiger Woods. BAHAHA. You guys are so terrible. We played some weird game that involved hand smacking and screaming. Chai and Isaac danced to smooth criminal, the amount of ass shaking and crotch grabbing was way too much but very very funny. Isaac and Chai walked around in high heels! HAHA, such entertainment :)

MAE AND I WILL DO A COVER VERY VERY VERY VERY SOON. hahaha ;D

pictures on Facebook, I love you nonexsistant readers :D

xx

Outings.

Sorry to all non-exsistant readers for not updating my blog. Teehee! I have been very busy back here in JB! Woooh, tiring.

LIFE IS HARD, LIFE IS BLEAK. I WISH I COULD PLANT A KISS ON YOUR CHEEK. imissmydonkey :(

I arrived in JB 33 minutes pass 7. My reservation was at 7.30 LOL. Felt good to see everyone again :D No pictures were taken because we shisha-ed. So yeah, keeping things pretty safe :D Roa was purely addicted and Isaac got high ;( I am such a bad influence. You guys should NOT hang out with me anymore. LOL Seriously, what Vithya said is utterly true, I really do not fail to corrupt anyone ;D

After that we went to Danga Bay. woooh! that place is so weird and boring. Its like the One Utama of JB but much smaller and there is nothing to do there. Okay, clearly it is not the one utama of JB, its just a place for all the mats and minahs to hang out at night. HA. It was so scary okay! From Singgah Selalu to Danga Bay we have to cross a road, no HIGHWAY.  So obviously I was screaming and shouting. Roa almost got hit by a car. Bloody psycho. Grr. Then later I was cat called. EEEEEEE. Yvonne and I were like running from here to there to get the brownies. HAHA.

Mae came over after. We had a photoshooot. Whooo! Mae Pea in a photoshoot was utterly hilarous! bahaha.  I coaxed her with all my skill. BAHAHA. Anyways we were up from Midnight till like 3 Oh wellies ;D I love my peaaa :D And she was forced to stay over. Muahahahaha!

I stayed in the whole day the next day and did my bracers. Teehee, how fun :F They're coming off on the 28th, how exciting, yet depressing, My gosh!  Can not wait!

Meh, will continue blogging tomorrow. Adam's calling ;D

xx

Hair.

Hello people.

I am going to leave to the hairdresser to do something to my hair.

Chop it all off or get it dyed something wild like neon green/electric blue?

oh well :)

bye :D

xx

New Moon, soo stupid.

Why was she ALWAYS this close or even closer to him almost all the time?

Seriously, Bella doesn't HAVE to stand like 2cm away from Taylor just to;

1) feel his freaking yummy abs

2) talk to him in the freeeaking truck

3) diss him.

I stress the third one. Because, IF YOU WANNA DISS SOMEONE DON"T BE ROMANTIC LAH HELLLLOOOOO =.= gah!

Frustration vented.

Other than that, new moon was the stupidest movie ever. The cheezieness level is so high I was laughing/screaming/squealing/pony-squeaking the whole way. I pity Christine and Alia as I had destroyed their hands. BAHAHA. Effie must be thankful I didn't sit next to her. LOL. Nevertheless, and I'm freaking sure everyone agrees with me;

Jacob Black/ Taylor Lautner's body is THE SEX. wooh 

*melts*

I always knew sharkboy had a sex god in him. wooh!

Getting my HON books back tomorrow. Yay :) I need PROPER vampire books. The Twilight saga is worse than Dracula. Teehee! I hope they make a movie of HON, its gonna be amae-zing. Though they wont be able to film the sex scene, because it would be like R rated then, but they can't cut it out either, maybe they'll like make it HIGH affection&bloodlust! , like him imprinting Zoey, then the tie with Heath gets broken and she tells him everything. Oooh! the thrill. Well, if only it turns into a movie. It'll be a freaking good oneeee!

My riding has been improooving. :D We plan to jump maybe on Sunday morning! Teehee. The joint up with Rob was amazing! :) Oh well, hope the universe starts going in the direction I want it to this time round. SUKMA is in 7 months, I'm coachless, and Baldi can't leg yield for nuts. Holy crap. Lets maintain our 65% avg and we will do fine. Pray pray.

Good news has arrived, or maybe not. Lets hope this relationship would work out. 

xx

Law of Attraction; If you believe something will happen, eventually it will :)

I wish ebuddy could save conversationss!!

Nis thinks I'm Lesbian.

Vithya knows that I haven't failed to corrupt anyone if  I put my mind to it.

HAHA. I love my bestfriends.

xx

ZE OUTING. well, DINNER.

BAHAHAHHA. I loveee my title. Teeheee! Clearly, I have an outing/dinner with them JB lovelies. As per usual, I'm trusting Haren with the boys and all the girls with the girls. HAH! This week is stupidly busier than planned. I can't even meet up with Hanna at this rate! :(

I is mooooving to Section 16. Daddy wants to send me to Asuntha. Or CBN or something. Apparently he's sick of cempaka too. BAHAHHA. Like father like daughterr. Anyways. Fingers crossed I get into Sri Hartamas. Closer to Bukit Kiara, hope to scoot there after school. Ah hell, PMR year. I need a resolution!

Okay! I am dramatically bored. Hah, contradiction. Paradox is something I've learnt to live with.  Stupid universe. I have to shower soon, family going to visit Aunty in hospital. I'm gonna see an old childhood friend. How nice, no?

" I'm sophisticated, charming, suave, and debonair, but never have I claimed to be civilised"

Familiar?

More important stuff for them JB loves;

Place ; Singgah Selalu.

Time ; 8pm

Dress Code ; mamak. HAHA

RSVP ; 0127232200 

Love ya'll.

...sorry to disappoint, but no boys today...

xx