I've been sunburnt. Great.

xx

I miss you!

Hello, I miss you. I know we were never that close compared to everyone else, but I miss you. I miss having a big sister, like seriously. People used to say we were sisters, people used to say I look like you. Tall, and similar features; I really felt like your sister. We talk alot, though only when you're not distracted by everyone else. I understand you have a much more fascinating life than me, oh well, I miss you :)

Hello, I miss you. I miss going riding with you. I miss telling you everything about my wonkey unfortunately hilarious life. I miss eating choki-choki with you in your room and terrorising your doof bag. I miss watching entertaining movies with you and anticipating every typical cheesy hollywood line. I miss following you everywhere because I was left all alone. I miss riding with you, I miss talking to you. I miss cheering you up all the time and entertaining you by being myself. You're distant now, what happened? Detachment is pretty weird, you somehow made me feel loved. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss your reaaallly irritating personality that is SO damn bi-polar and everyone has to listen to YOU all the time. Freaking gila. But I miss it! I miss you, walking to your house from school and your mom being so nice to me and the time I followed you to NTUC to get your groceries. I miss you talking about N and every other guy you fell madly in like with. I miss talking to you bout rubbish and being your "boyfriend" Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss you're no emotion-ness. I miss your ability to laugh at my tripping over an OBVIOUS metal bar. I miss your support for gay people. You're so hard to please, yet I manage to make your smile all the time at my very lame and failed jokes. I miss telling you about my life and not agreeing with your advice. I miss going crazy while you think i'm an utter moron. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss you. I miss hanging out after school with you. I was happy there, unlike now, I guess because of you. I felt like someone needed me, and I needed them. I miss having you around to talk about life and friendship and about our cruise. I miss having my support and giving you yours. I miss bumping into random people when we're out. Oh well, I miss you.

Hello, I miss all these people above, and more.

My head is spinning, I need to eat, yet I feel fat!

Christmas party was FUN. 

Liyana and gang have gone up to Genting,

WITHOUT ME. grr.

Bracers off tomorrow morning. YAY!

I'll be in Johor soon loves,

xx

Edit./

Imissyou! The guy I thought you were. Its very disappointing. I may not have thought romantically of you, but hell, you were like my best friend. You were there when I needed you most and I thank you for that. But the worst part of it all is that when I was happy, you didn't let me share it with you. I miss talking to you on the phone about your life and my life, and you being high, and hanging out, and everything. You were SUPER FUN to be with, and its really sad that you just cut off contact with me. The fact that you had feelings for me didn't change the fact that I liked you as a friend, but obviously you wanted more right? Why couldn't we just be friends, thats all I wanted to be. Hell, I'm not even sure about where I am now. Sorry dude, but whatever. Oh well, I just freaking miss you.

Cover Ideas :)

Hello nonexistant readers! :D

Today is the day before I go to JB, hence I want to figure out what song to cover with MAEthePEA :D SOoOoOOOooOoOOOooO (that was soo cool!) these are the song choices :D

3 cheers for 5 years :) - Mayday Parade

Saltwater room :) - Owl City

Broken Strings - James Morrison feat. Nelly Furtado

OR

Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship feat. Leighton Meester.

Help help :D

I bet Mae is gonna be like " I THOUGHT WE DOING 3 CHEERS FOR 5 YEARS!" :O HAHA I AM DEAD.

Oh, spammer, I want you're opinion this time too okay :D Love you,

xx

:D

Christmas is here, Christmas is here.

But I didn't eat turkey, no eggnog, NOTHING. :(

Opened all my presents, shoes galore. ;D

yay,

xx

I LOVE YOU MAE.

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:19 PM)

peter pan is reall!!!

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:21 PM)

HAHAHHA

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:29 PM)

HAhSHHAHHA HOW YOU KNOW?!

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:35 PM)

he visited you in the toilet?

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:39 PM)

*wiggles eyebrows*

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:41 PM)

HAHAHAHA

Alicia | Christmas ? ): says: (5:33:42 PM)

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHHHA

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:48 PM)

NO NO NO

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:51 PM)

IT WAS LAST NIGHT

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:55 PM)

.^^

✰[u]мaeurιқa[/u] {brb} says: (5:33:59 PM)

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Think dirty, and you'll get the joke :D. Ilovethisgirl!

xx

Rock that body, come on come on.

Hello my blog readers! :D

Today is the PMR results thingy. Oh joy :) I hope all my 23093485708194 friends did well :D haaahaaa =.= I prayed (lie) that you guys are happy with your results. Seriously, if you didn't do as well as you wanted, but gave it your all, don't despair. Think of it as karma, and go do something nice to pick the mood up. Who knows, PMR isn't the end of the world!

I have homework to do! OH POO. :( I had like 2 weeks to finish it, and now I only have 3 hours. How sad, how depressive. Oh well, chop chop.

As Bal said, I can not stay still; henceforth the tiny depression period of 2 days. BAHA. Life's to short to be sulking over other people's problems, even if they are close to you. So I shall say, SMILEEEE, go do something stupid and wild and never regret it. Live fast, die hard.

Brain Pain, I need my subwoofers and speakers. NOW NOW NOW NOW :( Its not nice to listen to dance music on my Mac. URGH. Someone, anyone, get me a christmas pressie! I wanna open it at midnight. :D Oh, another issue, should I ride tomorrow?

The other day, Talya and I were talking about going on a road trip/backpacking around Europe. :D I'm still excited about it, though the possibility of that happening is like 0. HAHA. But who knows, open up my mind bayybeh. I wanna learn languages :D Spanish, French, maybe even Italian! Oh, and improving my German is a must. I want 4 seasons. I wanna live somewhere interesting. But doesn't everyone?

Am still pretty GAGA over the Aldo dude, woooh. Hotness. But lord knows, I think dating someone who's more than 4 years when your below 18 is a little bit too risky. I think the gang knows that I'm very sure of what "legal" boys are capable of. :( Oh wellies, I miss my bestfriend, I need to bitch. Haih, life is so uneventful;

My Christmas is boring. And very dull. Haih, I need some snow. Does anyone have a snow machine? My Christmas tree is overdecorated, yet dull. The presents are overflowing, yet I feel no meaning to this. I don't CELEBRATE celebrate it, but Oma's been encouraging us to do it every year. What's happening? :( 

I have tuition in 2 hours. I need to finish my homework. HAIH. Depressive. Its Christmas eve, where is the spirit of it? Bottom line, I don't wanna have tuition. Anyone have Mr Sanchu's number?

Photoshoot with Liyana the other day. And I'll have to do with Zuzu too =.= Anymore portfolio updates and I will shoot them. Maybe I should get paid to pose. HAAHAA! omg, perfect job :D Lets go model, shall we?

xx

I just want to die.

depression |diˈpre sh ən|

noun

1 severe despondency and dejection, typically felt over a period of timeand accompanied by feelings of hopelessness and inadequacy.
Lord, save me.
My eyes hurt, my head is spinning. But I got 10 hours of sleep. What more should I do?
xx